The secret is out, I am going to Australia for five months. Its going to be a big adventure.
But I’m leaving behind my favorite living being.
Nothing quite touches your soul in the way a dog does. They truly are a humans best friend. Which means that it really rips me to shreds that I am choosing to leave for such a long time, and to go so far away.
But I did the mental calculus and I figured something out…
The time for me to travel is definitely now. As a fresh college graduate with no loan debt (a story for another time) and a really bad case of wanderlust. It is time for me to escape Minnesota for the rest of the world.
In contrast, the time for me to have a dog… is probably not right now. Though I adore my stinky boy, I definitely miscalculated on getting a dog at this age.
But I can’t just let him go. Moreover, Spot isn’t a normal dog. He is MY dog. He sleeps next to me on the pillow every night. He follows me into the bathroom. He watches me cook. He goes on walks and car rides and plays all with me. I’ve even taken him to work!
So obviously I am keeping the dog. I hope you didn’t think I was going to send him away. I will care for him until the day he dies.
I am going to leave him with my parents and his brother Ranger. Where he will have other people around to love him until I return.
This hurts, and I think about it every day. I torture myself thinking about what if. What if he runs away? What if he gets hit by a car? What if he gives up on life because I leave?
But I can’t do that to myself, because the fact of the matter is, in 15 years Spot will be dead. And in 15 years, I will be thankful for both the time I have already spent with him, and the time I spent in Australia. When I take this longview approach, it doesn’t always make me feel better. But it allows me to see my relationship with him for what it is, something that will have value no matter the length of time it takes up.
Spot will be with me always.
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